Live your life

So I know I opened my blog for a reason, but forgot what I wanted to write about... My heart and my head are filled with sooo much these days, I guess it's fitting that I don't know where to start or what I am doing....

The world is a mixed up mess, where the highs are high and the lows are, well rock bottom...there is no happy medium...at least I haven't found it yet...but I am not giving up here. 

Because I am doing 17 zillion things on the internet while  am writing this, cuz that's what I do...

I just stumbled upon a music video and I've heard the song several times before, but this might have been the first time I actually listened to the lyrics...

The song is Live Your Life by T.I. and before the song starts he says this:

What you need to do is be thankful for the life that you got.
You know what I'm sayin'.
Stop lookin' at what you ain't got
and start bein' thankful for what you do got.
Let's give it to 'em baby girl.

Disarray by Lifehouse

I've faced my demons
Wrestling these angels to the ground
And all that I could find
Was a thin line between
All the saints and villains
It was crossed in my own minds

Someday I'm gonna find it
Wish I knew what I was looking for
Inside the disarray (inside the disarray)
I woke up this morning
Don’t know where I’m going
But it’s alright I wouldn't have it any other way

Struggling between the facts and fiction
I’m alone
But I'm alive
Everyone around me is trying to make a statement, then there's me
I’m just trying to survive

Someday I'm gonna find it
Wish I knew what I was looking for
Inside the disarray (inside the disarray)
I woke up this morning
Don’t know where I’m going
But it’s alright I wouldn't have it any other way
If this was any other day
I pretend to know where I stand
I Just don’t know (just don’t know)
I Just don’t know

Someday I'm gonna find it
Wish I knew what I was looking for
Inside the disarray (inside the disarray)
I woke up this morning
Don’t know where I’m going
But it’s alright I wouldn't have it any other way
Someday I will find it
Wish I knew what I was looking for
Inside the disarray (inside the disarray)
I woke up this morning
Don’t know where I’m going
But it’s alright

I'm standing here until you make me move...

The title is from the song "Hanging by a moment" by Lifehouse. That song and that band helped me get through the last few days...like I said in the note I posted on facebook, with the lyrics to that song. [I'm not sure if I am relating to this song, because I just heard it again for the first time in a while or if it's because it reminds me of a trip I took in grade 11. At any rate the lyrics are great and I've fallen in love with it again. But not just this song all the Lifehouse songs, they're wonderfully crafted. And Jason Wade has a very comforting voice...] Oh and I think the best way to enjoy their songs is with head phones(actually it's the best way to listen to most songs).
I guess music makes me happy too...but I already knew that.
Oh the point of the lyric as the title was that I spent the better point of the day at the school again(9:45AM until 6:50PM-ish). So in real life, standing was actually sitting and I made myself stay until it was done... But I got my documentary done and let me tell you when I left that class room this evening it was as if a huge weight was instantly lifted off my shoulders. My world turned around(for the better). Not only that but I went to the Slammers game, I was running the music(paying job!), I got there just in time(out of the school by 6:50 at the rink by 7:20, had time to eat and chill for a few mins, not bad turn over).
The guys were happy that I showed up, even if i was a tad late. As you can imagine I was just happy to be at the rink, but was that much more happy when the guys skated out on the ice and leading the team was my fave goalie. Not only had it felt like forever since the last game but it also felt like I had seen him in forever and a day. It was as if the last two days didn't even happen, it's true that the outside world doesn't even matter when you are in the rink. The Slammers got the first goal but ended up losing the lead in the third only to score at 16:17 to tie the game at 3, forcing overtime. Which seemed to end just as fast as it started with the game still tied. Forcing the shoot out, I think this was only the second time we have seen a shootout at home, this season. I knew that 'my' goalie was 2-0 in the shootout, so I figured we would have a good shot(no pun intended). The first two shooters for the Timberwolves and our first shooter, didn't score. But our second shooter scored which ended up being the game winner(4-3 was the final). It was a great game! And a great way to end my week...
The World Pond Hockey Championship is going on 'just up the road' in Plaster Rock...I had kind of hoped to make it this year, but it doesn't look too good. At this point, I'd almost rather travel to Miramichi and see the Slammers play tomorrow, but I know that won't happen...so I am going to sleep until lunch(or later) and enjoy Hockey Day In Canada from the comforts of my room. :D
I've unfortunately got a few things to work on for school...but they can wait, I need a day off and that I shall get! Sleep will happen now...good day!

you might be crazy when...

you 14 hours and 45 minutes in front of a iMac (give or take a few breaks)!!

That's a full day I will never get back, and for what?! I am still not done my documentary. It kind of makes me sad, because I was really hoping to get it done today, even though we were given another day to finish it. Did the extra day help or hinder?! I think it 'hindered' me, even though I kept telling myself to get it done, in the back of my mind was the "you have tomorrow too".

At any rate, I am on the verge of crashing and will need every moment of sleep I can get as I plan to head to school in the morning.

Best wishes to my fellow documentary producers! Zzzzz

Happy thoughts :)

So I'm kind of in a crappy mood but instead of ranting, I want to write about something that makes me happy (OK, yes, I'll tell you now it's mostly about hockey...).

I was trying to think of something that made me happy recently and it happened at the rink of course. On Friday night I went to the Woodstock High School boys hockey game. I had nothing else to do and it was cheap entertainment. A friend of mine is the Assistant Coach, so on Friday afternoon I check with him to see what time the game was at, I told him I would probably be up to see the game and take a few pictures. He warned me that the score likely wouldn't be in their favor, I told him that was fine as long as they were having fun out there. He then said he couldn't have said it better himself. I then ran off to school to finish up a few things, so I could have the weekend off. While I was at school, that same friend texted me and asked if I could show up early and get a few pics for him(his brother plays net for the team and there is a set of twins on the team that this is their last season as they are graduating this year). I agreed to show up early(I had not plans, right?).
Before I left the school, around 5, I had a short conversation with another friend about coaching. I informed him that if I was to coach I would want to coach Timbits Hockey(if you aren't familiar with Timbits Hockey, it's for new hockey players, I think they are about 4 or 5. And the point is to get them out there skating and having FUN). Honestly what could be better than helping out little kids while they are learning to skate, there isn't the extra pressure or winning or scoring goals they are just out there having fun. When I was telling my father this, he told me that he had had a very similar conversation and said he would like to coach Timbits too. (Honestly who wouldn't?!)
Any who I left the school and headed to the rink. I arrived early, caught some of the warm up and got the pics I had been asked to. Then I got set to watch the game, 23 seconds into the game Leo Hayes High School scored and I was reminded of my earlier conversation...no worries I thought the game is just starting. LHHS scored a few more and WHS switched goalies and switched back. The score was 8-0 after the first but instead of quitting there the Thunder(WHS) came back on the ice for the second the 2nd goalie was back in at this point. The scoring continued and WHS even scored one, I think it was 10-1(or 11-1) after the second. I looked it up and I believe WHS have only won one game this year and most of the other games were blow outs (a few being 12-0). But none the less the boys were still out there, not only representing their school/team but also themselves. The game ended 14-1 but with a few minutes left I saw some of the players come back and smile/joke with their goalie. At the buzzer a handful of guys even came back and hugs/high fived their goalies. I snapped a few pics and you can even see smiles on their faces. They shook hands, as I assume is always done after a high school hockey game.
Why is this such a big deal? And why did I bother writing this?
Because despite being down(and out) these boys didn't give up, they didn't quit when the game was hopeless. They played the full 60 minutes, they didn't fight or get chippy. And they did it with smiles on their faces. I was also proud of the coaches who still stood behind the team on the bench and the fans in the stands(mostly parents I assumed) who were there for the boys.
I realized that this game is more than winning, it's more that scoring goals. Sometimes it's just fun to play, no matter how your team is doing. And knowing that there are players and teams out there who are losing and still having fun, well I will cheer for them till the end! (I'll even likely be smiling along with them.)

The Thunder did make it to the playoffs(it's either to fight for last place or just because there aren't many teams in their division). Their first playoff game is Wednesday(tomorrow) against Carleton North, it's an away game so I won't make it(that and my doc is due Thursday...) but I wish the boys nothing but the best. And I hope however well they do or don't do, they keep smiling!!

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Side note: I am not apologising for this post, I know it's long and probably boring to most, I just wanted to write it. :)

Lazy Sunday...

Yes! I'm going to have both blogs done before Monday morning! haha I've a busy week ahead of me, so this should help me. But it wasn't my initial plan, I just feel like writing.

Last night marked the end of the Slammers winning streak which was at 12 games...I've got all kinda of questions surrounding the game and the team, however, I sincerely doubt they will be answered. Ever. I don't understand why you play one goalie Friday night, he gets a shutout and then you turn around and start the other goalie the next night?! I guess that's my main question. And it's not even that I like one goalie more than the other, I won't hide that. But why wouldn't you start your goalie that just had the shutout? I'm not the coach and I don't know what goes on with the team, I wish that was answered though, but I'm sure I won't ever get the answer. I also realize that the goalie that started in the loss last night is probably our 'starter' and will play in the playoffs and I can't do anything about it. Sometimes it's hard being a fan. The other thing is we lost to Amherst...the last two times we faced them was at home(during the streak) and we beat them both times(the first time 5-2 and the second time 5-3) so how do we lose to them 4-1 in their barn?! I knew they would have to lose eventually I'm just disappointed in how it happened. Don't get me wrong they haven't lost me as a fan, I don't think they ever could.
The 12 game winning streak brings me to another point, how good(or bad) is a league that has (at least) two teams that have 12 game winning streaks? (the Timberwolves also did it in the fall, and I'm really not sure if any one else did it.) It's not because either team is THAT great and it's not that the other teams are bad. Twelve wins in a row is a pretty big feat, no matter the league. I just think it's pretty crazy.

Oh well! Another weekend in the books, though I didn't get any school work done(I did think of a few things and I did write blogs, so I guess I kind of did do some). It's funny how I want everything to be done and yet I hardly make an attempt, haha. Hence the busy week ahead. My first documentary and my proposal for my second doc are due Thursday. It's going to be a lot of work, but it will get done and hopefully there won't be too many bumps along the way. Hopefully I am in bed early tonight and I'll be all set to take on the week!

it's just another saturday...

I don't want to go into the gory details about my week, just that things have happened that have opened my eyes...I've known for awhile but it has become more apparent this week. Not everyone is what they seem. Plain and simple. I don't want to say anything more than that, it's just a crazy world we live in.

I also can't help but think about how my life has changed since last year at this time. Which brings me back to the 'people changing'. I know I've changed, I like to think for the better, if anything I've grown up...I wish other people would.
I know it makes no sense, but if you know me you know what I'm talking about...

On the flip side, school is going well. I've got a great start on my script for my doc, I just have to get a few more shots...I think I am going to use my voice to narrate it. I've kind of planned on using it all along, but thought I might get someone else. However it's nearly crunch time and since I have the deadline and it's my doc then I think it's best if I do it myself.

For my Internet Journalism course, I have kinda forced myself to change my idea for my second assignment. I realized that my initial plan would be foiled to due lack of help by my potential subject. But it works out better for the third assignment any how. So now I am looking for an event for the second assignment. But I am not too concerned(you understand Theresa).

I guess I might as well address the 'elephant in the room' so to speak...It's valentine's day! Yay...not! haha It's just another day, why do we honestly have these 'special' holidays(if you have heard my rant about Christmas you'd understand). Why and since when do we need a specific day to celebrate love, and why just one day?!? Shouldn't we be celebrating it all the time? I just don't get it... (I know what you're thinking, "blah blah blah" says the single girl. But seriously, think about it)

What else can I go on about(haha)...nothing I suppose. It's 6:30AM and I haven't slept yet(don't ask), so I suppose I should.
[EDIT: Apparently it puts the time I started writing the blog...who knew?!]

Happy New Year all!!! (or something like that, haha)

pushing the limit...as always

Another week nearly done...another week closer to graduation.
I can't get over the fact that in a few short months I will be a college graduate...for the second time. And I'm still not sure what I want to do with my life.

...I just realized it's officially Friday the 13th. It's not a big deal, I'm just a bit superstitious.

Wow. Another pointless blog...I'm sorry.

blogging when I should working...

So I got myself to the school by around 3 this afternoon, mostly cuz I was sick of being in my room (not that being at school staring at the Macs is any better) and I know that I have to crack down and get this *bleepin'* doc done. But I really don't want to make this doc anymore and I although I was pretty excited about my 2nd doc, those hopes have kind of fizzled out as well and I find my thoughts else where...where else would they be but on hockey, of course.

The Slammers are currently on an 11 game winning streak, however they are 13-2 since the Christmas break. They have claimed a playoff spot and are fighting for the home ice advantage. I can honestly say I have been cheering for them all year, through the ups and the downs. When they weren't 'clicking' at the beginning of the season to the last minute trades. But I haven't been this proud since, well since maybe last season's playoff run...

I know the season isn't over yet, the boys have 6 more games ahead of them, including two away games this weekend(Friday night in  Resitgouche and than in Amherst the very next night). It should be a tough weekend but I have faith in them to pull through a couple more wins before next weekend's (Feb 20 and 21st) home and home against Miramichi (away the 20th and home the 21st). Then the boys will be home to end the regular season against Summerside on the 27th and Restigouche on the 28th. There isn't a better time than right now to be a hockey fan in Woodstock! 

Well I must of done enough procrastination for now...

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I already had this published (yay! I'm procrastinating again!!) I just realized I haven't mentioned my next project for Internet Journalism...well I am still waiting for a subject, I have the idea and everything all figured out I just need to find someone who is will to cooperate, and there is the problem. Grrr! Any who I guess that is really all for now...back to the grind.

It's Thursday night...

or Friday morning...
At any rate I need to have another blog written by noon, so here it is...

I've had an interesting week, full of ups and downs (not that I would expect any less from life), including my 25th birthday. I'm not going to complain about my age, cuz I can't change it and I don't think that I want too. It's strange because I really don't feel 25 and I feel like I've missed a few years somewhere...I don't know how to explain it.

School's well school...my documentary that was suppose to be due next Thursday got pushed back until the following Thursday. Which is great! Because as prepared as I thought I was, I realize that I am not very prepared at all! However it will get done...hopefully early. I'm looking forward to my second doc...I'm a little worried about the story but I think it should be fine.

Hockey wise, the Slammers are currently on a winning streak. 9 in a row! I'm pretty happy about that and they have two games this weekend. As you all know I pretty much live for their games so I can't wait! On a side note I am going to be paid to take in the games this weekend, so that it a huge bonus! (I'll be running the music, and as such will be paid.)

I think that's about all I feel like writing about here, for now....

A quarter of a century...

Twenty five years ago today I was born...

I'm not sure what else I wanted to say, just that. 

I guess I thought things would change as I start my 25th year, but so far nothing has happened(probably for the best)... 

School is going well, nothing much to report there, everything that is due, is done.